So now I wait. I wait for an artist consult with someone in the music biz that has the power to make something of me if he likes me well enough. My contact person who has set this review of my work up just sent me an email. Explaining to me the probability of my not making the grade. She tells me in no uncertain terms about my age being a factor. She says the music biz is a young persons game…she spoke of my lack of experience and whatever she could think of to prepare me for possible failure. Oh geez! Wonder why she even thought that we should try to do this. It’s hard enough to realize that I’m throwing myself into the lions cage. I have the audacity to think myself good enough to go before this major heavy hitting star maker? This icon has the ability to change my whole life though! Scary! If I think about it too much I will find excuses to think myself not worthy of the chance to try… The man is after all, just a man who puts his pants on one leg at a time…never mind he is who he is?! Huh? Is this really my reality, somebody pinch me! My Mom would be do the dance of joy in the street for me with just the possibility to go before this guy…too bad I can’t share this with her!
I don’t want to jinx this by giving you a name. I will share the who info. whenI am through with this process. You would flip if I dopped the name. I still can’t believe the opportunity. I must be crazy or just so ready to try to get something going right for myself! This trying bit is a test of bravery or stupidity , take your pick.
I’ll believe any and all of this when I see it. Right now it’s all just a daydream of endless possibilities with a huge chance of heartache depended on which way the pendulum swings. Regardless of the outcome, the sun will rise and set. The tide will come in and go out…The dishes, laundry, dogs and kids will all need to be tended to. My husband will want dinner and clean house to come home to…so my daydreams just have to wait lol…