Burning Up And Out

It’s been days of 110+ degree temps here in Phoenix. The monsoon season has been a real dud! No rain or storms at all to speak of. The least monsoon activity since moving here 16 years ago. At least when it rains, it cools things off for a few hours. Even though it’s in the high 80s most mornings I take a 3 1/2 mile walk. I love to walk, it’s time to myself to think!

Other than my daily homemaking chores, I made a few homemade pies-

I did however steal an afternoon this week to work on music for my SoundCloud Channel. Here a few of my latest uploads!

Free Bird Imagine Don’t Let The Sun Go Down On Me– Written by Lynyrd Skynyrd, John Lennon & Sir Elton John

Praying For Time– Written by George Michael

Silent Lucidity– Written by Queensryche

Fool’s Overture -Written by Roger Hodgson formerly of Supertramp.

Never Let Me Down– Written by David Bowie

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Lastly, I dare include this risky, courage building, risk taking, fear inspiring, A Cappella upload challenge. I can’t tell you the feeling of exposing your raw voice with no accompaniment. It’s like throwing yourself into something. Definitely out of my comfort zone. I did it however and I posted it on my channel. Character building? Maybe? Crazy stupid? Maybe?

Judging by the lack of plays, not widely interesting to those who frequent SoundCloud lol. Putting myself out there is what I have done now for the past 5 years… Very little has come back to me other than my own personal growth.

I’m much more bold and assertive than I was 10 years ago. I don’t feel as invisible as I did either.

Not as helpless or hopeless. Not a shrieking violet anymore. I have faced rejection, ridicule and naysayers at every corner and I’m still motivated to keep trying to make it somewhere in all of this. The goal being, monetary gain and some sort of musical expectance and achievement. R.E.S.P.E.C.T. would be welcomed too!

I still have days where I have self doubt in how I am perceived. Maybe I’m a big joke to those who know me. I get that when the topic of this aspiration comes up. That look they give me… my friends and family… oh well!

If all of what I have thrown out into the world in the form of music isn’t good enough… Well then I suppose I have at least been authentic to myself. I have hopes, dreams and personal goals that I didn’t have 6 years ago!

The toll of being a career Homemaker/Caregiver is that you lose yourself to all of the people and things that you caretake. After a while with no sense of achievement and only hearing complaints…it messes with you.

You become Cinderella and you dream of a life that takes you away from that unhappy life choice.

So, if it makes you happy to dream big and at least partially escape the unhappiness and discontent…

Better than drowning yourself in alcohol, pills or other destructive behavior… do it!

If you aren’t good enough for the world, so what!

I’ll leave you with this today. I wrote this. My Original-

I’ll Dream Of You Tonight

Very Cinderella like don’t ya think?

Simply Something More

Zoe playing lacrosse in a game yesterday. She just happened to get the ball and I snapped a pic.

This will give Zoe leadership opportunity that will help her on a college application. Not to mention a personally enriching experience I bet. Thrilled for her to have this opportunity!

Plenty is going on here but I took an afternoon yesterday to have some me time!

Something More

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This pie has molasses in it and it caramelized. It tastes like pumpkin flan lol. It tastes better than it looks…

One of my grown daughters was extremely ill a few days ago. Diagnosed with pneumonia after having the flu last week. She never gets sick like this so I decided to make a big couple of pots of soup. Chicken, barley and a ton of different vegetables went into this soup. Loaded with vitamins and some protein I wanted to make a hot meal that I thought might help her recover.

I was pretty worried when I saw this!⬇️

She had just gotten back from the Dr. with a bunch of meds she was preparing to take when she sent me this pic! I’m glad to say that the meds kicked in quickly and she is doing and feeling a whole lot better! Scary!

Anyway, I bought a nice loaf of crusty bread and boiled some wide egg noodles for options to go with the soup. Delcee really appreciated the soup. She kept telling me how it really helped. I think she really appreciated being able to have a cooked meal for her kids to eat that she didn’t have to worry about making. That was my hope anyway…

Home improvement is always ongoing. The joys of home ownership. We have had the drapes for about 3 months but we didn’t have time to put them up. Finally got around to covering these new windows which are 18 months old now lol. Like a herd of turtles…

I am thrilled with the outcome!

I had these other panels that I bought a few years ago. I thought I would try to sell them but instead I decided to hang them in the dining room. A mini make-over in my entire front room. I’m loving them as well!

Yesterday was our first 100 degree day of this year. 100 degrees on April 10! What will summer be like, that’s a little concerning lol. Today won’t be that warm here in Phoenix. Maybe just 95… Already getting hot!

Thanksgiving Tidings And Blessings To All

This is a current 1st grade homework assignment that Amelia and I just finished. We had fun putting this together. I hope her teacher will like it.

I spent the morning on my original music! Tightening it up and daydreaming of actually professionally recording this. I have a whole vision for an album. How I wish I could record an album! Oh what an amazing dream come true that would be! Wow! Anyway, if you are interested, check out my SoundCloud Channel!

Here are the links to my uploads for today

Mystify

I Want This Night To Last Forever

The Queen Of Something More

I had a great day with a ton of creative energy. Yesterday, I recorded this video together for my YouTube channel.

Nous Vivons Ensemble written by Gordon Lightfoot

This video, carries a message and tidings for a wonderful Thanksgiving to all of you. Those of you who support and acknowledge my creative endeavors, I thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Wishing you a wonderful, happy and healthy fun celebration! Enjoy a peaceful holiday!